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悪夢の果てに見るユメ // Akumu no Hate ni Miru Yume

The “hidden” track from 夢 -utsutsu-.

Sumireko wakes up in a hospital bed, gasping for breath.

She wishes to be free of her dreams to fully give up on them so that she may be free, though those dreams don’t wish to let her go.

As the song progresses she begins to contradict herself, and in the very last line she ends up asking for what she has spent the rest of the song trying to distance herself from.

Sumireko wakes up in a hospital bed, gasping for breath.

Weeping.

悪夢の果てに見るユメ
 Akumu no Hate ni Miru Yume
 A Dream Dreamt In the Depths of a Nightmare
見た事も無い悪夢の世界|東方紺珠伝
ラストオカルティズム ~ 現し世の秘術師|東方深秘録
Vocal: nayuta
Arrange/Lyrics: RD-Sounds(凋叶棕)
Guitar: 光収容(光収容の倉庫)
Circle: 凋叶棕
Album: 夢 -utsutsu-
Event: C90

――一体ここは何処なのだろう。
連続しない現実は。
人はそれを夢と呼ぶ。
だけれど。

–ittai koko wa doko nano darou.
ren’zoku shinai gen’jitsu wa.
hito wa sore wo yume to yobu.
dakeredo.

–Where is this place, after all?
This discontinuous reality,
Is what we would call dreams,
Yet

         現実は一つしかない。

gen’jitsu wa hitotsu shika nai

There is only one reality.

その身に起こる全ては
一つの魂を介して
その身体を遍く満たし
そして『現実』となる

sono mi ni okoru subete wa
hitotsu no kokoro wo kaishite
sono karada wo amaneku mitashi
soshite “gen’jitsu” to naru

Everything that happens to me,
As experienced through my singular soul,
Fills my body completely,
Becoming my “reality”.

私がどこにいて
         何を見ようとも
ここが『現実』だと
         信じる他にない

watashi ga doko ni ite
nani wo miyou tomo
koko ga “gen’jitsu” da to
shin’jiru hoka ni nai

Wherever I am
Whatever I see
I have no choice but to believe
That this is “reality”.

――私にはユメがあった。
翔けるは見知らぬ世界。
息の詰まる日常を。
抜け出し。

–watashi ni wa yume ga atta.
kakeru wa mishiranu sekai.
iki no tsumaru nichijou wo.
nukedashi.

–I once had a dream,
Of racing through an unknown world,
Of escaping from my suffocating
Day to day life.

         誰も知らない世界へと。

dare mo shiranai sekai e to.

Into a world no one had ever before known.

けれどあの世界の全ては
終わりの無い悪夢として
この魂を遍く満たし
そして『現実』となる

keredo ano sekai no subete wa
owari no nai akumu to shite
kono kokoro wo amaneku mitashi
soshite “gen’jitsu” to naru

But that world and everything about it
Was nothing but an endless nightmare
Which filled my soul completely
Becoming my “reality”.

私の在る場所
         夢になどでなく
この現実にこそ
         見出すために

watashi no aru basho
yume ni nado de naku
kono gen’jitsu ni koso
miidasu tame ni

The place where I belong
Is not in any dream,
But in reality, so
In order to find it…

   ――もしも願いが叶うのなら。
      もう二度と。
  悪しき幻想など見ないように。

–moshimo negai ga kanau no nara
mou nido to.
ashiki yume nado minai you ni.

–If I could have any wish granted,
I would wish that never again
I would ever see such wicked delusions.

  縋りたい、この希望に、けれど。
それを『悪夢』と呼ぶと、私は知っている!

sugaritai, kono kibou ni, keredo.
sore wo “akumu” to yobu to, watashi wa shitteiru!

Though I still wish to cling to old hopes,
I know that they really are nothing but “nightmares”!

      だから、今。
  この手で全て否定すること。

dakara, ima.
kono te de subete hitei suru koto.

So now,
Of my own accord I will deny everything.

 ――悪夢の果てに見るユメとして。

–akumu no hate ni miru yume to shite.

–As nothing but a dream dreamt in the depths of a nightmare.

――私にはユメがある。
小さな、ささやかなユメ。
この幻想を手放して
そうして。

–watashi ni wa yume ga aru.
chiisa na, sasayaka na yume.
kono gen’sou wo tebanashite
soushite.

–I have a dream.
A small and modest dream.
That I would let go of delusion,
and so…

         私の今を取り戻す。

watashi no ima wo torimodosu.

Take back my present.

あの世界で得た全てが
私を縛る楔となり
その全てが遍く満ちて
そして『現実』となる

ano sekai de eta subete ga
watashi wo shibaru kusabi to nari
sono subete ga amaneku michite
soshite “gen’jitsu” to naru

Everything that I “gained” in that world
Was nothing but a chain to tie me down.
All of which covered me completely
Becoming my “reality”.

けしてしまうため
       もうもどらないよう
あのゆめのせかいなど
         こわしてしまえ

keshite shimau tame
mou modoranai you
ano yume no sekai nado
kowashiteshimae

So that I could but a certain end to it
So that I might never return
I could want for nothing more than
That dream world to crumble

  ――そう一つずつ積み重ねる。
     この全てを。
  否定するべき言葉たちを。

–sou hitotsuzutsu tsumikasaneru.
kono subete wo.
hitei surubeki kotobatachi wo.

–Yes, one after the other again and again
I will say these words.
Denying anything and everything about it.

   解き放つ、この魂を、だから
  けして終わることのない幻想など
      いらない!

tokihanatsu, kono kokoro wo, dakara
keshite owaru koto no nai yume nado
iranai!

I will open up my soul to say
That never would I ever wish for
A neverending dream.

      自問い続ける。
   その幻想が壊れるまでに。

toitsudzukeru.
sono yume ga kowareru made ni

Until the delusions collapse I
Affirm to myself again and again.

 ――悪夢の果てに見るユメとして。

-akumu no hate ni miru yume to shite.

–It was nothing but a dream dreamt in the depths of a nightmare.

       夢を見る。
      安らかなる夢
  ――それは或いは、現実なのか?

yume wo miru.
yasuraka naru yume
–sore wa arui wa, gen’jitsu nano ka?

I dream.
A tranquil dream.
–Or is perhaps, this reality?

  ――現実と夢が狂わぬように。
       今度こそ。
  本当の現実を見るために――。

–yume to gen’jitsu ga kuruwanu you ni.
kon’do koso.
hon’tou no yume wo miru tame ni-.

I pray I do not mistake readreamslity for drerealityams,
So that this time for sure,
I can witness a true readreamlity.

   夢には、ユメなどない、だから。
 現実という名のユメを、抱きしめ続ける!

utsutsu ni wa yume nado nai, dakara.
yume to iu na no yume wo, dakishimetsudzukeru!

In the drerealam world, there is no such thing as dreams, so.
I will embrace that dream we call readreamslity!

      どうか。嗚呼。
    この夢が続くのならば。

dou ka. aa.
kono gen’jitsu ga tsudzuku no naraba.

Please, ah…
If this drerealityam is to continue…

 ――悪夢の果てに見る夢となるように。

–akumu no hate ni miru yume no naru you ni.

–At least may it be a dream dreamt in the depths of a nightmare…

空に近い場所 // Sora ni Chikai Basho

This song is brilliant, like a page out of some good NTR-fiction.

The narrator wakes up to a female friend having sex with them in bed.

To sum this up, this nightmare is a succubus, and the succubus is Kosuzu (according to the artwork).

The actual song doesn’t pin down the narrator as male or female (Akyuu), though there are hints that suggest it is female x female. Of course it can work either way.

空に近い場所
 Sora ni Chikai Basho
 A Place Close to the Sky
ジャバニーズサーガ|東方求聞史紀
Vocal: めらみぽっぷ
Arrangement/Lyrics: RD-Sounds
Circle: 凋叶棕
Album: 夢 -utsutsu-
Event: C90

「ねえ ごめんね。こんなことになって」と
その両目を潤ませ
あなたの手がそっと その震えを伝えて

“nee gomen’ ne. kon’na koto ni natte” to
sono ryoume wo urumase
anata no te ga sotto sono furue wo tsutaete

“I’m so sorry that it ended up this way,”
You say with tears in your eyes, and
Through your hands I can feel you shaking.

触れ合う手で 何かが伝わるの
何もかも押し付けて
それでもなおきっと 伝えきれないことを

fureau te de nanika ga tsutawaru no
nani mo ka mo oshitsukete
sore demo nao kitto tsutaekirenai koto wo

Can really anything be conveyed as our hands touch?
You’re pushing everything onto me
Yet I’m sure what you want to convey isn’t all reaching me

もう
いいとも いやとさえも 言えずにただ押し黙っては
感じる熱量だけ
もっともっともっと……高く。

mou
ii tomo iya to sae mo iezu ni tada oshidamatte wa
kan’jiru netsuryou dake
motto motto motto…… takaku.

No longer
Able to accept you or push you away, I stay silent
Just feeling the heat,
Rising higher and higher and… higher.

飛べない
私達には 空を 知る手立て無く

tobenai
watashi tachi ni wa sora wo shiru tedate naku

We cannot fly
We have no way of knowing the sky

それでも
あなたはこうして 私を求め続け

soredemo
anata wa koushite watashi wo motometsudzuke

Yet
The way you keep thirsting for me like this…

こうしていれば
まるで空を飛べるかというようにー。

koushiteireba
maru de sora wo toberu ka to iu you ni-.

When we’re like this
You look as though you feel you can fly…

擦れあうのは 互いの何処なのだろう
その口から零れる
小さな泡沫が 意識の飛沫となって

sureau no wa tagai no doko nano darou
sono kuchi kara koboreru
chiisa na utakata ga ishiki no himatsu to natte

What of our own parts are rubbing against one another?
Tumbling out of your mouth,
That fleeting foam bursts into a spray of consciousness

返す視線が あなたをどうさせるだろう
全て無駄だと知っても
せめてほんのわずか 甘く棘を挿すように

kaesu shisen’ ga anata wo dou saseru darou
subete muda da to shittemo
semete hon’no wazuka amaku toge wo sasu you ni

How will you react when I look back into your eyes?
Even though I know it will mean nothing
I cannot help but to inflict some pain, to prick you like a thorn

結局は
意味など無く 永遠に至ることもない
内なる想だけ
もっともっともっと……深く。

kekkyoku wa
imi nado naku eien’ ni itaru koto mo nai
uchi naru gen’sou dake
motto motto motto…… fukaku.

In the end,
This has no meaning, and nothing from it will last forever.
It is nothing but an internal fantasy
Driving deeper and deeper and… deeper.

飛べない
夜の何処かを 独り独り彷徨うばかり

tobenai
yoru no dokoka wo hitori hitori samayou bakari

We cannot fly.
We only wander the night, each of us alone.

それでも
わたしはどうして この身掻き抱かれて

soredemo
watashi wa doushite kono mi kakidakarete

Yet
The way you clutch at and cling to my body…

夢と現の
境目にいながらにして戸惑うー。

yume to utsutsu no
sakaime ni inagara nishite tomadou-.

I am lost as I
Stand on the boundary between dream and reality.

内なる願望
求めるものもわからずに
でも願うなら 次に会うときには いつも通りに

uchi naru nozomi
motomeru mono mo wakarazu ni
demo negau nara tsugi ni au toki ni wa itsumo doori ni

As for internal desires
Not even those that seek them really know them
But if I were to make one wish, it would be for us to act as if this never happened.

飛べない
「貴女」とでは どこにも 辿り着けない

tobenai
“anata” to de wa doko ni mo tadoritsukenai

We cannot fly.
There is nowhere that I can reach with you.

優しく
そっと視線だけ あなたを拒むように

yasashiku
sotto shisen’ dake anata wo kobamu you ni

Gently
With only my gaze I try to reject you

それでも
心のどこか あなたを受け入れるのは

sore demo
kokoro no doko ka anata wo ukeireru no wa

Yet
Somewhere in my heart I still accept you

飛びたい
そう思うこと きっと似ているのだろう

tobitai
sou omou koto kitto niteiru no darou

Perhaps
It’s because I too feel, in a way, that I want to fly

こうしていれば
きっと少しだけ 空の近くへー。

koushiteireba
kitto sukoshi dake sora no chikaku e-.

That when we’re like this
We are at least, somewhere closer to the sky…


301 // Sono Saki

I miss translating, I really do. I’ll try to work some more into my schedule soon.

Note:
A yojana is traditionally 12~15km.

301
 Sono Saki
 Further Ahead
広有怪鳥射事 ~ Till When?|東方妖々夢
Vocal: めらみぽっぷ
Arrangement/Lyrics: RD-Sounds
Circle: 凋叶棕
Album: 夢 -utsutsu-
Event: C90

その身体から伸びる影をして
私の全てより高く聳えている

sono karada kara nobiru kage wo shite
watashi no subete yori takaku sobieteiru

Taking the form of a shadow cast by that man
It stands higher than any and everything I am

その身より放つ威容は
難攻不落のごとく

sono mi yori hanatsu iyou wa
nan’koufuraku no gotoku

The majestic aura it released
Was like an impenetrable fortress

ありとあらゆる方向に
けして機を見出せない

ari to arayuru houkou ni
keshite ki wo miidasenai

Not from any angle could
I find a single opening

居合わせ
構え
この見 研ぎ澄ます
注ぐ視線の先
嘗て無い強敵に

iawase
kamae
sono ken togisumasu
sosogu shisen’ no saki
katsute nai kyouteki ni

We face each other
Swords at the ready
My senses sharpened
As I gaze upon an strong enemy
Unlike any I have ever faced

整える呼吸も痛く
沈黙ばかりが長く

totonoeru kokyuu mo itaku
chin’moku bakari ga nagaku

Even the breathing I ready is painful
As only silence drags on and on

あなたはけして語らない
ただ剣をして語るのみ

anata wa keshite kataranai
tada ken’ wo shite kataru nomi

You will not say a single word
But only speak through the sword

百度打ち合わせ
百度地を這って
尚 未だ 未熟

hyakudo uchiawase
hyakudo chi wo hatte
nao imada mijuku

A hundred times we clash
A hundred times I exert myself
Yet all that shows is my lack of skill

けれど立ち上がる 百一度目へと向けて さあ

keredo tachiagaru sono saki e to mukete saa

Still again I stand up and ready myself for the one hundred first time.

もういつまで
こうしているのだろう

mou itsumade
koushiteiru no darou

Just how much longer
Will I be caught up like this?

けして敵わぬ影は
無慈悲にも手を緩めない

keshite kanawanu kage wa
mujihi ni mo te wo yurumenai

I am no match for this shadow
Cruelly showing no sign of going easy on me

いつまで
せめて一太刀だけ

itsumade
semete hitotachi dake

How much longer?
If I could just land one strike…

それだけを一念に
また一閃く 意志はただ強靭く

sore dake wo ichinen’ ni
mata hirameku ishi wa tada tsuyoku

Focusing only on that one thought
If nothing else my will flashes strongly

昨日の自分より 弱いままでは居られない!

kinou no jibun’ yori yowai mama de wa irarenai!

I cannot stand to stay as weak as I was yesterday!

この手ずから雨の手応えを知り
道半ばにして空気に触れもして

kono tezukara ame no tegotae wo shiri
michinakaba ni shite kuuki ni fure mo shite

Through my own efforts I feel the resistance of the rain
Standing in the middle of this road, I take in the atmosphere

更なる世界への道は
未だ長く遠く先

saranaru sekai e no michi wa
imada nagaku tooku saki

This road that leads on to other and greater worlds
Is still long, extending far off into my future

あなたの見た世界などは
及びさえもつかない

anata no mita sekai nado wa
oyobi sae mo tsukanai

As for a world like the one you saw
I can’t even begin to imagine reaching it

三十 五十 二百と数えながら
きっとあなたでさえも長き道の途中かも

san’juu gojuu nihyaku to kazoenagara
kitto anata de sae mo nagaki michi no tochuu kamo

As I count thirty, fifty, two hundred…
I realize that even you too might still be walking down a long road

ここより先の世界は
自分で歩けというなら

koko yori saki no sekai wa
jibun’ de aruke to iu nara

If you mean to say that I should walk myself
If I want to reach new worlds

目の前の影でさえもう
道の一つに過ぎない

me no mae no kage de sae mou
michi no hitotsu ni suginai

Then even this shadow in front of me
May be nothing more than a road for me to take

辿る先は遠く
二百由旬を越えて
尚 未だ 遥か

tadoru saki wa tooku
nihyaku yujun’ wo koete
nao imada haruka

The destination I seek is far
Over two hundred yojana crossed
Yet it feels no closer

けれど足を踏む 二百一由旬目へと向けて さあ

keredo ashi wo fumu sono saki e to mukete saa

Still with each step I move on to cross the two hundred first.

でもいつまで
進めばいいのだろう

demo itsumade
susumeba ii no darou

But how much longer
Should I keep moving forward?

けして届かぬ影は
無慚にも容赦はしない

keshite todokanu kage wa
muzan’ ni mo yousha wa shinai

I can never catch up to this shadow
Showing me not a shred of mercy

いつまで
終わり無き道程

itsumade
owarinaki michinori

How much longer
Must I walk this neverending road?

ゆらぎかける思いが
影となって忍び寄る前に

yuragikakeru omoi ga
kage to natte shinobiyoru mae ni

But before my wavering thoughts
Become a shadow that creeps up upon me

明日の自分が 今より先にいると信じて!

ashita no jibun’ ga ima yori saki ni iru to shin’jite!

I believe that tomorrow I will be further along than I am today!

一年
一年
積み重ねてあなたを越えるまでに

hitotose
hitotose
tsumikasanete anata wo koeru made ni

One year
And another
They add up, until when I can surpass you

ならば走り出す 三百一年目へと向けて さあ

naraba hashiridasu sono saki e to mukete saa

So I’ll race on ahead towards the three hundred and first

そういつまで
かかるとしてにせよ

sou itsumade
kakaru to shite ni se yo

How much longer?
However long it takes

今は遠いままでも
この影へと立ち向かうまで

ima wa tooi mama demo
kono kage e to tachimukau made

Even if now that is still a long way off
Until I can stand against this shadow

いつまで
その思いを切伏せ

itsumade
sono omoi wo kirifuse

I will keep
Cutting my doubts away

けして迷うことなく
この両手を強く握って

keshite mayou koto naku
kono ryoute wo tsuyoku nigitte

Unwavering in these two hands
I tightly grip my sword

昨日の自分より 弱いままでは居られない!

kinou no jibun’ yori yowai mama de wa irarenai!

For I cannot stand to stay as weak as I was yesterday!


始符「博麗命名決闘法布告ノ儀」 // Shifu “Hakurei Meimei Kettouhou Fukoku no Gi”

Synopsis:
Reimu’s ancestors declare a new rule of law concerning dueling (danmaku play) so that Gensoukyou does not destroy itself. I say the second narrator is a half-slumbering and observing Yukari.

始符「博麗命名決闘法布告ノ儀」
 Shifu “Hakurei Meimei Kettouhou Fukoku no Gi”
 Starting Sign “The Hakurei Christened Law of Dueling’s Proclamation Ritual”
東方怪綺談|東方靈異伝
少女綺想曲~Capriccio|東方幻想郷
少女綺想曲~Dream Battle|東方永夜抄
赤より紅い夢|東方紅魔郷
Vocal: めらみぽっぷ
Arrange+Lyrics: RD-Sounds
Circle: 凋叶棕
Album: 掲 -kakage-
Event: Reitaisai 13

告げる

tsugeru

I hearby proclaim:

おおまえにこのなにおいて ともどもきこしめさんと
よろずのひとにあやかしに あまねくしろしめさんと

oomae ni kono na ni oite tomodomo kikoshimesan’ to
yorozu no hito ni ayakashi ni amaneku shiroshimesan’ to

Before those present, by my name I shall make myself heard by thee all
To the myriad hosts of man and phantoms, to all I shall make this known

まぼろしのついえぬために かくつくさしめたまえと
あらたなるさだめのために かくかしこみもうすこと

maboroshi no tsuienu tame ni kaku tsukusashimetamae to
aratanaru sadame no tame ni kaku kashikomimousu koto

So that our fantasy doth not expire, I implore thee to exert thy everything
For the sake of a new rule of law is why I come thus before thee all to speak

ー握る。
その手の中には。
一片の。
意味という符名の定め。
祈祷り届ける。
その始まりを。
そしてその終焉まで。

-nigiru.
sono te no naka ni wa.
hitohira no.
imi to iu na no sadame.
inoritodokeru.
sono hajimari wo.
soshite sono shuuen’ made.

-What you.
Grasp in your hands.
Is a single page of the.
Law which goes by the name of meaning.
Let your prayers be heard.
For the beginning.
Until the end of it all.

高く天まで高く その始符
全てに遊ぶ規律となり
刻の限りに続けよと
夢の宣言を掲げてー。

takaku ten’ made takaku sono kotoba
subete ni asobu kiritsu to nari
toki no kagiri ni tsudzuke yo to
yume no hajimari wo kakagete-.

Those words reach high, up to the heavens.
Becoming the rules by which all will play.
Let them continue until their time expires.
Raising up this declaration of the start of a dream-.

強き敵。
あなたはどうして。
それを宣び。
それに思いを馳せるの。

tsuyoki mono.
anata wa doushite.
sore wo sakebi.
sore ni omoi wo haseru no.

Strong one, my enemy.
Why do you scream.
Out such a declaration.
Why do send your thoughts racing so?

その手に握るイデオロギー 意志を符名にして

sono te ni nigiru ideology ishi wo kotoba ni shite

That ideology you grasp in your hands, putting your will to words…

今は未だ。
その顔さえも。
知りはしない。
けれどいつかきっと。

ima wa mada.
sono kao sae mo.
shiri wa shinai.
keredo itsuka kitto.

I have yet.
To even see your face.
I know you not.
But one day surely.

触れ得る未来の何処かで 相見えることでしょう

fureuru mirai no dokoka de aimamieru koto deshou

Somewhere in the near future, surely we will meet.

転換する世界は
新たな規律を擁して

ten’kan’ suru sekai wa
arata na kiritsu wo youshite

The ever changing world
Embraces a new law

今 秩序無き 弾闘に 新たな美学を添えて
垣間見る 予見する 己の来るべき明日を幻視る

ima rule naki arasoi ni aratana rule wo soete
kaima miru yoken’ suru onore no kitarubeki ashita wo miru

What was once lawless war now comes with a new rule of the aesthetic
Now one can glimpse, predict, see the tomorrow which should be coming one’s way

ー風に袖を靡かせて 自由に空を翔る姿
空を埋め尽くす弾幕に 相対する昂揚は たとえる術などなく

-kaze ni sode wo nabikasete jiyuu ni sora wo kakeru sugata
sora wo umetsukusu dan’maku ni aitai suru takaburi wa tatoeru sube nado naku

-Her sleeves trail in the wind as she races freely through the sky
There is no way to describe her exhilaration as she faces the all encompassing curtain fire

戦うことなど目指さず 競うはただただ美しく
行く果ての無い幻という
明日を無くした思いの全てをその手に掲げて

tatakau koto nado mezasazu kisou wa tada tada utsukushiku
iku hate no nai maboroshi to iu
ashita wo nakushita omoi no subete wo sono te ni kakagete

Not a battle but a competition, it is simply beautiful
A moving fantasy that has no end
In your hands you raise up every emotion of one who has lost their tomorrow

強き私。
あなたはどうして。
それら宣ぶ。
ものに立ち向かうの。

tsuyoki mono.
anata wa doushite.
sorera sakebu.
mono ni tachimukau no.

Strong one, myself.
Why do you stand.
Against those that scream.
Out such declarations?

それはきっとこの瞬間さえ 変わらないことなのでしょう

sore wa kitto kono toki sae kawaranai koto nano deshou

Surely, that is something that even in this instant will not change.

世界は遊びながら
私も遊ぶように

sekai wa asobinagara
watashi mo asobu you ni

As the world plays
So shall I

今 容赦無き 楽園に 素敵に慈悲無き力を
携えて 撃ち放つ それが博麗という名のスペルカード

ima youshanaki rakuen’ ni suteki ni jihinaki chikara wo
tazusaete uchihanatsu sore ga watashi to iu na no spellcard

Now in this relentless paradise, wielding wonderful and merciless power
What I shall fire and release is a spell card whose name is mine, “Hakurei”

ー空に意識を預けて 自在に宙に遊ぶ姿
愚かしき企みの全て 越えていく快感は たとえる術などなく

-sora ni ishiki wo azukete jizai ni chuu ni asobu sugata
orokashiki takurami no subete koeteiku tanoshisa wa tatoeru sube nado naku

-She leaves her consciousness to the sky as she plays freely in the air
There is no way to describe her joy as she transcends the foolish plots of her enemies

さあ来い その意味の全て この身にぶつけてみせるがいい
廻り廻る意味を見出した
この身に溢れる力の全てをこの手に掲げて

saa koi sono imi no subete kono mi ni butsuketemiseru ga ii
megurimeguru imi wo midashita
kono mi ni afureru chikara no subete wo kono te ni kakagete

So come, take all of your meaning and try your best to strike me with it
I have found meaning in the comings and goings
So in my hands I will raise the power overflowing from within me

壱枚目
ーずっと傍にあった 不思議な陰陽玉

-zutto soba ni atta fushigi na on’myoudama

-The mysterious yin-yang ball that has always been by my side

弐枚目
ーこの針と供に 全ての敵を貫く

-kono hari to tomo ni subete no teki wo tsuranuku

-Together with these needles I will pierce through every enemy

参枚目
ーこの身より放つ 夢想の光は強く

-kono mi yori hanatsu musou no hikari wa tsuyoku

-The dream light which shines forth from me is strong

肆枚目
ー果て度無く広がる 陣をして捉えよう

-hatedo naku hirogaru jin’ wo shite toraeyou

-With these endlessly expanding formations I shall capture

伍枚目
ー二重なる結界 境界を消し去って

-futae naru kabe kyoukai wo keshisatte

-With these dual walls I shall erase the boundaries

陸枚目
ーこの身の無名の力にも ーいつか。

-kono mi no mumei no chikara ni mo -itsuka.

-Even between the nameless power within me, one day

ー風に袖を靡かせて 無限に空を翔る姿
変わりうる意味のその全て けれどその何もかもが けして変わりはしない

-kaze ni sode wo nabikasete mugen’ ni sora wo kakeru sugata
kawariuru imi no sono subete keredo sono nani mo ka mo ga keshite kawari wa shinai

-Her sleeves trail in the wind as she races limitlessly through the sky
All of that meaning which can change, no – none of it, none of it will change

そうしてはじまった世界がいつしか潰える日が来ても
「制限時間」は未だ長く

soushite hajimatta rule ga itsushika tsiueru hi ga kitemo
“seigen’ jikan'” wa mada nagaku

In this way, even if this new world of rules one day collapses
The time limit is still far away

さあ 天まで届けとばかりに “始符”を今 掲げ!

saa ten’ made todoke to bakari ni “hajimari no kotoba” wo ima kakage!

So now raise up your words of beginning, so much that they reach the heavens!

Marisa Eversion

I may have spent too long on this song.

//
[Merriam Webster]

noun ever·sion \i-ˈvər-zhən, -shən\
1: the act of turning inside out: the state of being turned inside out
2: the condition (as of the foot) of being turned or rotated outward
-eversible \-ˈvər-sə-bəl\ adjective
antonyms : inversion

(transitive) verb e·vert \i-ˈvərt\
1: to overthrow, upset
2: to subject to eversion
antonyms : invert

//

This is my favorite stanza right here:
ああ、天から堕ちる。
何かが落ちてゆく。
それら全部は私のものなのに。

//

Notes:
“Shadow” is used as a synecdoche (metaphor) for Marisa, or the “strange new girl in town”, and as there’s a lot of folk stuff about your shadow being part of you, this makes perfect sense. This also sets up another great metaphor in the beginning, when the second narrator, and first bystander remarks that no one knows her name or where she lives, but everyone is eyeing her cautiously and sizing her up. The funny thing is that in Japanese you use the word “step” for that. So you pair it together with shadow, and you get “stepping on her shadow”. You might have heard about the game where children try to step on each others shadows, but there’s folklore associated with that as well. When you’re shadow is stepped on, you’re an oni, you’re it, and quite possibly, you’re also dead. There’s a folk story about a girl getting her shadow stepped on and dying (and then haunting people).

In other words.
Wait for it.

WAIT FOR IT.

They’re making a witch out of her.
And this is before anything funny happens.

Some lyrics are on the “DAY” side of the page.
Some lyrics are on the “NIGHT” side of the page.

All of the lyrics on the night side are Marisa.
All of the lyrics on the day side are bystanders.

However!

A very possible way to read this song is that “Marisa” is nothing but the culmination of the projections of her onlookers. I don’t necessarily take it that far, (even if they are projecting) but the structure of the song does suggest that possibility. The eversion the onlookers feel is the feeling of having their projections bounce right back at them as they sympathize with their projections when they see “Marisa”‘s face.

To finally clarify: “These feelings of eversion” means, “these feelings that are causing me to feel turned inside out”.

Eversion’s a fun and very unique word choice for this, because it’s emphasis is on the “out” of the inside out. They’re feeling turned inside out because they’ve pushed their inside (subconscious feelings) out as they observe “Marisa”, and are shocked at and deny these insides as an “other”.

The reason all of the women, specifically the first two are so sure in their beliefs about “Marisa” is explained by the third woman. “We are all born knowing these things, but them being hidden inside of us.”

As for the three women, you can think of them as the same person over time, or three separate people. Either works I think, but I lean towards different people.

EDIT:

RD’s subtweeted comments in response to noticing this translation:

霧雨魔理沙という名の幻想は博麗霊夢という名の幻想とはだいぶ性質が違う。なまじ我々の側に立つポテンシャルを秘めているがだけに(そのようにして生まれたのだ)我々に近い、つまり、我々の感覚を持ってして、共感し得てしまう。だから、あれは、人の心を掴んで、その沼に引き摺りこむのでははないか

The fantasy known by the name of Kirisame Marisa is very different in nature to the fantasy known by the name of Hakurei Reimu. Due to the fact that she embodies in a forcible way, hidden within herself, our own potential that we have standing my our sides (for that was the way she was born) she is very close to us. In other words, with our senses that we have we can sympathize with her, share her feelings. So, in that way, does not she grab our hearts and drag us down into the swamp?

というよりも、見るものが勝手に、沼に沈んでいるわけで、彼女は何もしていない。
ただその立つ位置が、それだけが良くなかったのかもしれないし良かったのかもしれない。

But I suppose I should clarify. Those that see her are sinking into the swamp on their own, she isn’t doing anything. It is just that by her being there, by her being present that she may or may not be a positive or negative force.

博麗霊夢という名前の幻想はこれとは別に、遠い。あれはある種の神のそれのように、彼我に距離を認めるところから始まって、ときにその冒涜が美味しくなったりする。それはしかし前提としてまず「遠い存在」だというところから始まらないといけないのでは、と思う。この点が霧雨魔理沙とはやはり違う

The fantasy that goes by the name of Hakurei Reimu is different from this, in a word, she is far. She is like a certain kind of goddess, and her being exists at its genesis as an understood separation between the “us” and “them”, and in that way she can in a sense make blasphemy appetizing. But as a pretense, she must start and begin as a distant existence. At least that’s the way I think, and it is in this way that Kirisame Marisa is different.

つまりやっぱり霊夢は神で、魔理沙は人間なんだよ。

In other words Reimu really is a goddess, and Marisa is human.

Kirisame Eversion
魔法使いの憂鬱|Grimoire of Marisa
Witch of Love Potion|蓬莱人形(トルテ ル マジック ~ Tort le Magic)
Vocals: めらみぽっぷ
Arrange+Lyrics: RD-Sounds
Circle: 凋叶棕
Album: 密 -hisoka-
Event: C89

やっと聞けた言葉
「貴女しか見えない」なら
もう他には何も
要らないはず

yatto kiketa kotoba
“watashi shika mienai” nara
mou hoka ni nani mo
iranai hazu

Finally, I’ve heard those words.
“I cannot see anyone but you.” If so,
Then you don’t need
Anything else, do you?

人の目を引く 気になるあの子
ここの辺りで 見慣れぬ背格好で
時折ここを 歩いているけど
名前も知らなきゃ 住む場所も知らない

hito no me wo hiku ki ni naru ano ko
koko no atari de minarenu sekakkou de
tokiori koko wo aruiteiru kedo
namae mo shiranakya sumu basho mo shiranai

That girl who draws everyone’s attention, she’s been on my mind
She’s doesn’t look like anyone else around these parts, and
Though you’ll see her out, walking around from time to time,
No one knows her name, nor where she lives

ただその小さな影を踏むように

tada sono chiisa na kage wo fumu you ni

But everyone stares upon her small shadow, as if trying to assess her

ある日見かけた 気になるあの子
今度は彼女 二人で連れ立って
傍から見れば ただの友人か
けれどどこか 歪な影

aru hi mikaketa ki ni naru ano ko
kon’do wa kanojo futari de tsuredatte
hata kara mireba tada no shiriai ka
keredo doko ka ibitsu na kage

That girl I saw one day, the one that’s been on my mind
This time, she’s out together with someone
The way it looks, it could just be a friend,
But there’s something about her shadow that seems… twisted

それはまるでそれを 油断ならぬ敵と看做しているようで
こんなにも近しくも けして目を離さぬ 凶星

sore wa maru de sore wo yudan’ naranu teki to minashiteiru you de
kon’na ni mo chikashiku mo keshite me wo hanasanu manatsuboshi

The way they looked upon her was as if she was an enemy that demanded vigilance
No matter how close and friendly she seemed, they could not take their eyes off this ominous summer star

ああこんな小さな影が
独り佇むその姿に
愁眉を想うのは
そんな顔を覗かせるからか

aa kon’na chiisa na kage ga
hitori tatazumu sono sugata ni
shuubi wo omou no wa
son’na kao mo nozokaseru kara ka

Ah, how could it be that when I see
Her small shadow standing alone
I feel such an unease?
Is it because I see her show such a face?

反転させる想い
己は何者か知るのか
ただ純粋な程に
強く 強く 少女として

han’ten’ saseru omoi
onore wa nanimono ka shiru no ka
tada jun’sui na hodo ni
tsuyoku tsuyoku shoujo to shite

These feelings of eversion
How could I know just what you are?
But truly, simply I feel
Strongly, strongly, as the girl I am…

ああ、天から堕ちる。
何かが落ちてゆく。
それら全部は私のものなのに。

aa, ten’ kara ochiru.
nani ka ga ochiteyuku.
sorera zen’bu wa watashi no mono nano ni.

Ah, falling from the sky.
Something is falling.
But all of those, they all are mine!

与えられる以外に。
欲しいものを欲しがって。
それのどこがいけないのか。

ataerareru igai ni.
hoshii mono wo hoshigatte.
sore no doko ga ikenai no ka.

To want for what you wish for
Out of the things you haven’t been already given
Just what about that is so wrong?

ああ、生きて生きて生きて。生きているうちは。
その全ては私のものだから。

aa, ikite ikite ikite. ikiteiru uchi wa.
sono subete wa watashi no mono dakara.

Ah, I’ll live, I’ll live, I’ll live, and as long as I’m alive…
Everything is mine.

――拠所のない 確信を抱え
少女はどこまでも揺れているのか

-yoridokoro no nai kakushin’ wo kakae
shoujo wa doko made mo yureteiru no ka

…I carry, a foundationless but certain belief
About just how unstable that girl is.

やっぱりそれでも 気になるあの子
ここの辺りで 見慣れぬ背格好で
時折ここを 歩いているけど
けして独りでは 生きちゃいられない

yappari soredemo ki ni naru ano ko
koko no atari de minarenu sekakkou de
tokiori koko wo aruiteiru kedo
keshite hitori de wa ikichairarenai

But still that girl, she’s been on my mind
She’s doesn’t look like anyone else around these parts, and
Though you’ll see her out, walking around from time to time,
She is one who could never bear to live by herself

その小さな影を色濃く落として

sono chiisa na kage wo irokoku otoshite

As she casts her shadow, deep and saturated…

ある日見かけた 気になるあの子
ところが彼女 男と連れ立って
それは傍目にも 仲睦まじく
けれどどこか 歪な影

aru hi mikaketa ki ni naru ano ko
tokoro ga kanojo otoko to tsuredatte
sore wa hatame ni mo nakamutsumajiku
keredo doko ka ibitsu na kage

That girl I saw one day, the one that’s been on my mind
This time, she’s out together with a man
You can tell just by looking, that they’re very close
But there’s something about her shadow that seems… twisted

それはまるで誰かに 己の持ち物を見せ付けるようで
こんなにも厭らしくも けして目を離せぬ 凶星

sore wa maru de dareka ni onore no mochimono wo misetsukeru you de
kon’na ni mo iyarashiku mo keshite me wo hanasenu manatsuboshi

It was like she was walking around with something that was hers, showing off to someone
No matter how indecent she acted, no one could take their eyes off of this ominous summer star

ああこんな小さな影が
寄り添う姿にどうしてか
媚態を想うのは
そんな顔を見せてくれるから

aa kon’na chiisa na kage ga
yorisou sugata ni doushite ka
bitai wo omou no wa
son’na kao wo misetekureru kara

Ah, how could it be that when I see
Her small shadow drawing close to that other
I feel such a sense of flirtatiousness?
It’s because I see her show such a face

反転させた想い
己は何者か知るのか
ただ純潔な迄に
強く 強く 乙女として

han’ten’ saseta omoi
onore wa nanimono ka shiru no ka
tada jun’ketsu na made ni
tsuyoku tsuyoku otome to shite

These feelings of eversion
How could I know just what you are?
It’s just, purely and chastely
Strongly, strongly, as the maiden I am…

ああ、天から堕ちる。
何かが落ちてゆく。
それら全部は私のものなのに。

aa, ten’ kara ochiru.
nani ka ga ochiteyuku.
sorera zen’bu wa watashi no mono nano ni.

Ah, falling from the sky.
Something is falling.
But all of those, they all are mine!

奪われる前に
奪いつくすんだ。
全部私が持っていってやる。

ubawareru mae ni.
ubaitsukusun’da.
zen’bu ga motteitteyaru.

Before they’re taken from me,
I’ll take them all first!
I’ll steal them all away!

ああ、お前が悪いんだ。私が正しいんだ。
けしてこっちを見てくれなかったから。

aa, omae ga waruin’da. watashi ga tadashiin’da.
keshite kocchi wo mitekurenakatta kara.

Ah, you’re the one at fault! I’m the one who’s right!
It’s all because you wouldn’t look my way!

――拠所のない 確信を抱え
少女はどこまでも強くあるのか

-yoridokoro no nai kakushin’ wo kakae
shoujo wa doko made mo tsuyoku aru no ka

…I carry, a foundationless but certain belief
About just how strong that girl is.

恋を知って
愛を知って
それが何かを変えるのか

koi wo shitte
ai wo shitte
sore ga nani ka wo kaeru no ka

Having learned of love
Having learned of passion
Just what is there that has changed?

はじめから
それら全てを
内に秘めて産まれただろうに

hajime kara
sorera subete wo
uchi ni himete umareta darou ni

Weren’t we all born
With these emotions
Hidden inside of us?

ああこんな小さな影が
どうしてこんな小さな影に
魔を潜ませるような
そんな顔をしてしまえるのか

aa kon’na chiisa na kage ga
doushite kon’na chiisa na kage ni
ma wo hisomaseru you na
son’na kao wo shiteshimaeru no ka

Ah, how could it be that this girl
How can it be that she makes such a face
That betrays that there is magic lurking
In that ever small shadow of hers?

反転させた想い
己は何者か知りつつ
ただ貪欲な迄に
強く 強く 女として

han’ten’ saseta omoi
onore wa nanimono ka shiritsutsu
tada don’yoku na made ni
tsuyoku tsuyoku on’na to shite

These feelings of eversion
While starting to know just what you are
I, with a covetousness and greed
Strongly, strongly, as the woman I am…

ああ、天から堕ちる。
何かが落ちてゆく。
それら全部は私のものなんだ。

aa, ten’ kara ochiru.
nani ka ga ochiteyuku.
sorera zen’bu wa watashi no mono nan’da.

Ah, falling from the sky.
Something is falling.
But all of those, they all are mine!

従うことなく。
止めさせなどしない。
何も私を縛れはしない。

shitagau koto naku.
tomesase nado shinai.
nani mo watashi wo shibare wa shinai.

I won’t follow anyone.
I won’t let anyone stop me.
Nothing will tie me down.

ああ、もう離すもんか。これが呪いなら。
ずっと一緒に呪われてやるから。

aa, mou hanasu mon’ka. kore ga noroi nara.
zutto issho ni norowareteyaru kara.

Ah, do you think I’d ever let you go? If this truly is a curse,
Then I’ll be cursed with you forever and ever.

――拠所のない 確信を抱え
少女はどこまでも真っ直ぐにいるのか

-yoridokoro no nai kakushin’ wo kakae
shoujo wa doko made mo yugan’deiru no ka

…I carry, a foundationless but certain belief
About just how twisted that girl is.

禁符「フォービドゥン・ゲーム」 // Kinpu “Forbidden Game”

RD makes songs we all thought we were tired of interesting.

Childish selfishness, insanity, murderous intent, control, doubt, screams, love and unreasonable expectations.

nayuta is the Flandre.

Also my heart when she’s “explaining” things.

禁符「フォービドゥン・ゲーム」
 Kinpu “Forbidden Game”
 Prohibited Sign “Forbidden Game”
Vocal: nayuta
Arrange+Lyrics: RD-Sounds
Circle: 凋叶棕
Album: 掲 -kakage-
Event: Reitaisai 13

さあ はじめましょう
何もかもを疑い
でもひとつだけ
たしかなことがあるなら
あなたが従うべきルールはひとつだけ

saa hajimemashou
nani mo ka mo wo utagai
demo hitotsu dake
tashika na koto ga aru nara
anata ga shitagau beki rule wa hitotsu dake

So let’s begin
Everything will be suspect
But if there is one thing
That is certain, it is that
You have only one rule you should follow

ね あなたは何が出来るの
わたしの相手をしてくれるの

ne anata wa nani ga dekiru no
watashi no aite wo shitekureru no

Tell me, what can you do?
Will you be my playmate?

ね どこまで耐えてくれるの
わたしの遊び道具として

ne doko made taetekureru no
watashi no asobidougu to shite

So, how much will you be able to take?
As my plaything? I wonder…

ねぇ?

nee?

Don’t you?

ね していいかいけないかも
わたしは全部決まっているの

ne shite ii ka ikenai ka mo
watashi wa zen’bu kimatteiru no

You know? What’s okay and what’s not
That’s all for me to decide

ね あなたも従うべきなの
ここでは決まりが全てだから

ne anata mo shitagau beki nano
koko de wa kimari ga subete dakara

Now, you’ve got to play by the same rules
Because here, the rules are everything

ねぇ?

nee?

Don’t you see?

縛らねばならない
守らねばならないの
“だから”壊すことが 何よりも楽しくて

shibaraneba naranai
mamoraneba naranai no
“dakara” kowasu koto ga nani yori mo tanoshikute

You must be bound by them
You must protect them
But that’s why breaking the rules is so much fun than anyhing else

ねぇ、綺麗でしょう
破壊されていくルールが
散り散りに乱れゆくこの光景は

nee, kirei deshou
hakai sareteyuku rule ga
chirijiri ni midareyuku kono koukei wa

It’s so beautiful, don’t you think?
The way these broken rules
Shatter into millions of disordered pieces…

さあ、見ていてね
決まりを破るいけない子
遊び相手の前で何をしてしまうのか

saa, miteite ne
kimari wo yaburu ikenai ko
asobiaite no mae de nani wo shiteshimau no ka

So watch me, okay?
Watch just what this bad girl
Who breaks the rules will do in front of her playmate…

ねぇ!
変に優しくしないで!
そんなに厳しくもしないで!
私の弾幕を避けないで!!
ただ ただ あそんでくれれば
それでいいってね……わかるでしょう……?

nee!
hen’ ni yasashiku shinaide!
son’na ni kibishiku mo shinaide!
watashi no koi wo yokenaide!!
tada tada ason’dekurereba
sore de ii tte ne…… wakaru deshou…..?

Why don’t you listen!?
Don’t be inexplicably kind to me!
Don’t be that strict on me either!
Don’t dodge my love!!
If you would only, if you would only just play with me…
That’s all you have to do…… You understand, don’t you……?

これは ダメ 禁じられているの
これも ダメ ルールを破るから
けど「遊び」なら もしかして
許されるんじゃないかしら、ねぇ?

kore wa dame kin’jirareteiru no
kore mo dame rule wo yaburu kara
kedo “asobi” nara moshikashite
yurusarerun’ ja nai kashira nee?

I can’t do this, it’s forbidden…
I can’t do this either, I’d be breaking the rules…
But, since this is only a “game”…
It might just be overlooked, don’t you think?

ね 私のこの右手に
ちょっと力を入れるだけで

ne watashi no kono migi te ni
chotto chikara wo ireru dake de

You know, if I just put a little
Strength into this right hand of mine…

ね あなたは跡形も無く
壊れていってしまうのだけど

ne anata wa atokata mo naku
kowareteitte shimau no dakedo

You would break, you see?
There would be nothing left of you.

ねぇ?

nee?

Now wouldn’t that be awful?

ね でも安心してほしいの
わたしはとても良い子だから

ne demo an’shin’ shitehoshii no
watashi wa totemo ii ko dakara

Oh, but don’t worry, okay?
I’m a very good girl, you know

ね でも泣かないでほしいの
わたしはとても悪い子だから

ne demo nakanaidehoshii no
watashi wa totemo warui ko dakara

But you should really stop crying
Because I’m a really bad girl, okay?

ねぇ?

nee?

You understand, right?

触れて振れる
揺籠の中で独り
“けれど”私だけが いつまでも変わらずに

furetefureru
yurikago no naka de hitori
“keredo” watashi dake ga itsumademo kawarazu ni

I’m all alone in this cage
That shakes with the slightest touch
But, only I am forever unchanging

ねぇ、素敵でしょう
掲げるこの手の中には
二つの『命』が握られているの

nee, suteki deshou
kakageru kono te no naka ni wa
futatsu no “rule” ga nigirareteiru no

Don’t you think it’s wonderful?
In my raised hands right now
I have two fatal rules in my grasp

もっと暴れたら
いつか叱られてしまうかも
けれど遊びの限りコンティニューなどない

motto abaretara
itsuka shikarareteshimau ka mo
keredo asobi no kagiri continue nado nai

If I stuggle a bit more
Someone might come to scold me at some point
But as long as this remains a game, there will be no continues

ねぇ!
私を単体にしないで!
そこから出てしまわないで!
今に引き戻さないで!!
私の式を崩さないで!!!

nee!
watashi wo hitori ni shinai de!
soko kara deteshimawanaide!
ima ni hikimodosanaide!!
watashi no shiki wo kuzusanaide!!!

Why don’t you listen!?
Don’t leave me all alone!
Don’t leave through that exit!
Don’t pull me back right now!!
Don’t disrupt my spell!!!

ああ!
終わらせてしまわないで!
最後まで傍にいないで!
私の弾幕を避けないで!!
ただ ただ あそんでくれれば
それでいいってね わかってよね!!

aa!
owaraseteshimawanaide!
saigo made soba ni inaide!
watashi no koi wo yokenaide!!
tada tada ason’dekurereba
sore de ii tte ne wakatte yo ne!!

No!!
Don’t end it all!
Don’t stay by my side ’til the end!
Don’t dodge my love!!
If you would only, if you would only just play with me…
That’s all you have to do… Why don’t you understand!!

Ms. Lonely Hedgehog

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I hate to be that guy, but it’s amazing how much easier and refreshing it feels to translate lyrics after knowing what it’s like to have trudge through a novel.

Speaking of which, my first translated light novel is coming out this month, and it’s the second volume of “The Isolator”. Look it up. I don’t get royalties or anything, but hey, you might like it. Berate me if you’d like.

I’m currently working hard on another novel series, and it’s going to have an anime, and that should be fun too, and maybe all of it will be able to be enough for you all to forgive my long absences.

To be honest, I should be working on that and not this but what use is my ability if I’m not translating RD? Really.

On to the song.

Edit:
“in between the gap of one dream and another” – the second dream is pronounced “utsutsu” which means reality, so the full meaning of that line is: “in between the gap of a dream and reality, though reality is just another dream” – Thanks to heartfeltsigh08 for catching this, I can’t believe I missed it!

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The lyrics are written on the back of the blood stained scraps of a club enrollment form for the Secret Sealing Club.

Whited out, are the comments of at least one girl, making fun of the patheticness of such a club.

On the line for reasons for joining, is the link to the final track of the CD, whose lyrics concern the disgusting feelings that Merry and Renko actually feel for each other.

There are lines that would general require teacher signatures for approval – one of these is crossed out. “Advisor” is replaced by “Club President: Usami Sumireko”

Alone, Sumireko sits on a pile of concrete rubble of a collapsed classroom, with with bloody bodies of her classmates in pieces below her.

Anyway, Hello – Miss Carrie.

-TAAAAAAAAA!!!!!

Ms. lonely hedgehog
ラストオカルティズム~現し世の秘術師|東方深秘録
vocal: nayuta
arrangement+lyrics: RD-Sounds
circle: 凋叶棕
album: 密 -hisoka-
event: C89

ああ、辺り一面 コンクリートとガレキの山
どこかで見た センスの悪い映画のセットのように無秩序極まって

aa, atari ichimen’ concrete to gareki no yama
dokoka de mita sense no warui eiga no set no you ni muchitsujo kiwamatte

Ah… All about me is a mountain of concrete and rubble
The utter chaos of it like the set of a movie made in bad taste

ああ、辺り一面 散らばっている《名前も知らないクラスメート》の破片
もう二度と起き上がることもなさそうでほんのすこし羨ましい気もする

aa, atari ichimen’ chirabatteiru dareka no hahen’
mou nidoto okiagaru koto mo nasasou de hon’ no sukoshi urayamashii ki mo suru

Ah… All about me are the pieces of others, classmates whose names I do not know
They look as if they will never get up ever again, and I feel… at least a little bit jealous

聞こえる壊れかけのラジオからは ナンセンスな謳い文句の数々

kikoeru kowarekake no radio kara wa nonsense na utai mon’ku no kazu kazu

From a half broken radio I hear the nonsense lines of some promotion or another

もう聞こえはしない 苛立ちも無い それらを気にすることさえも無い
でもそれこそ本当は 唯一つ真理だったのかもとも 揺せぶられては

mou kikoe wa shinai iradachi mo nai sorera wo ki ni suru koto sae mo nai
demo sore koso hon’tou wa tada hitotsu shin’ri datta no kamo to mo yuseburarete wa

Yet no longer do I hear,
   no longer am I irritated by,
      no longer do I have to pay any mind to… them
But the the truth of that is in fact… Shaken by what may have been the one real truth,

ただ呆然と考えている 夢と夢の狭間に、身を置いて。

tada bouzen’ to kan’gaeteiru yume to utsutsu no hazama ni, mi wo oite.

I sat thinking, my mind blank, my body set in between the gap of one dream and another.

ああ、夢を見ている これはなんて悪趣味な夢
どこかで私を嘲笑う何者かの声が聞こえてきさえする

aa, yume wo miteiru kore wa nan’te akushumi na yume
dokoka de watashi wo azawarau nanimono ka no koe ga kikoeteki sae suru

Ah… I am dreaming, what a terrible, terrible dream this is
From somewhere I felt as if I heard the voice of someone or thing… laughing at me

ああ、夢ならいいのに そんな思いが脳裏を掠めては
そんな俯瞰的な思いを 抱くその端から徹底的に叩きのめされて

aa, yume nara ii no ni son’na omoi ga nouri wo kasumete wa
son’na meta na omoi wo idaku sono hashi kara metameta ni tatakinomesarete

Ah… If only this was truly a dream! Such a thought crossed my mind.
As I embraced such meta thoughts as if I wasn’t involved, I myself was beat black and blue

私は笑うよりほかになかった 幾多の思いに翻弄されて

watashi wa warau yori hoka ni nakatta ikuta no omoi ni hon’rou sarete

I could do nothing but laugh, overcome by a thousand emotions.

もう悩みもしない 堕落もしない それらに怯える必要もない
その恐れのあるもの 引き起こすだろうもの 全てはこうして 消えたのだから

mou nayami mo shinai daraku mo shinai sorera ni obieru hitsuyou mo nai
sono osore no aru mono hikiokosu darou mono subete wa kou shite kieta no dakara

No longer will I worry. No longer will I fall. I have no longer any need to fear.
Not from those I fear, not from those who would cause what I fear. All of that now has gone.

心のどこか 考えている これらの持ちえた その価値について。

kokoro no dokoka kan’gaeteiru korera no mochieta sono kachi ni tsuite.

Somewhere in my heart I consider, all of the worth that I might have been able to grasp.

もう誰もかも傷つけない。 そこには一人ぼっちのハリネズミ。

mou daremo kamo kizutsukenai. soko ni wa hitoribocchi no harinezumi.

But no longer can anyone be hurt. All who remains is this Ms. Lonely Hedgehog.

もう何も要らない 何も求めない 夢を歩くよりほかには無い
でも私はどうして価値のあるものを この世界でこそ 得られなかったのか

mou nani mo iranai nani mo motomenai yume wo aruku yori hoka ni wa nai
demo watashi wa doushite kachi no aru mono wo kono sekai de koso erarenakatta no ka

No longer do I need anything. No longer will I seek anything.
   I have nothing left but to walk through dreams.
But why, why was I unable to obtain in this world anything of worth?

ガレキの山で考えていた。

gareki no yama de kan’gaeteita.

This I thought, on a mountain of rubble.

私が真に欲していたものは、けれど

watashi ga shin’ ni hosshiteita mono wa, keredo

What I truly desired was… but

”それら”の上で吐き出したって。

“sorera” no ue de hakidashitatte.

Even if I were to say that now, on top of “them”…

ーもうこの秘密は伝わることはない。

-mou kono omoi wa tsutawaru koto wa nai.

-There is no way that they would ever know.

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