パラノイドガール // Paranoid Girl

Hi.

Mental health.

パラノイドガール
 Paranoid Girl
ラストリモート|東方地霊殿
Vocal: めらみぽっぷ
Arrange+Lyrics: RD-Sounds
Circle: 凋叶棕
Album: 虚 -utsuro-
Event: C91

あなたたちはいつだって
隠し事してばかり
その心に疚しい言葉を隠し持って

anatatachi wa itsudatte
kakushigoto shite bakari
sono kokoro ni yamashii kotoba wo kakushimotte

You all are always
Always hiding things
Concealing your guilty conscience in your hearts

どんな気持ちでいようと
お決まりの笑顔だけ
その表面に貼り付けて

don’na kimochi de iyou to
okimari no egao dake
sono omote ni haritsukete

No matter what you really feel
You always paste that
Same false smile on your faces

どうしてそんな嘘をつくの?
みんなわたしで遊んでいるの??
わたしがどういうモノなのかを 知りながら!

doushite son’na uso wo tsuku no?
min’na watashi de ason’deiru no??
watashi ga dou iu mono nanoka wo shirinagara!

Why would you tell such a lie?
Is everyone here just playing with me??
You all know, you know just what I am!

嗚呼
我慢ならない 偽りの声
無責任な言葉だけが木霊する
あなたたちはそれをごまかすのでしょう
けれどこれら全ての声――知っているのよぜんぶ!

aa
gaman’ naranai itsuwari no koe
musekinin’ na kotoba dake ga kodama suru
anatatachi wa sore wo gomakasu no deshou
keredo korera subete no koe – shitteiru no yo zen’bu!

Ah!
I can’t stand these lying voices
Irresponsible words echoing back and forth
Of course you all would just deny it
But all of your inner voices – I know them well, yes every one!

――私には聞こえるのよ。
はじめは虚ろに響く声
次第に強さを増すその声
わたしを蔑む無数の声
けして止まらない!

-watashi ni wa kikoeru no yo.
hajime wa utsuro ni hibiku koe
shidai ni tsuyosa wo masu sono koe
watashi wo sagesumu musuu no koe
keshite tomaranai!

-I can hear them, you see?
In the beginning it was like echoes in an empty room
But they kept growing in strength, all of those voices
Countless voices, all of them mocking me!
And it never ends!!

道傍の小石を
蹴っ飛ばすときみたいに
相手の気持ちなど何も感じないくらいに

michibata no koishi wo
kettobasu toki mitai ni
aite no kimochi nado nani mo kan’jinai kurai ni

The same way you kick a pebble
Off the side of the road
You all aren’t concerned for the way I feel, not at all

そんな誹謗中傷を浴びせて
そんな罵詈雑言をぶつけて
よくも平気でいられるのね

son’na kotoba wo abisete
son’na kotoba wo butsukete
yokumo heiki de irareru no ne

Despite the way you shower me with slander
Despite the way you beat me with verbal abuse
I’m almost impressed how it doesn’t pain you at all!

わたしのことを嗤っているでしょう?
心の奥で蔑んでいるでしょう??
わたしがどれほど傷ついてるか 知りもせず!

watashi no koto wo waratteiru deshou?
kokoro no oku de sagesun’deiru deshou??
watashi ga dorehodo kizutsuiteiru ka shiri mo sezu!

You’re laughing at me aren’t you?
Mocking me deep in your heart aren’t you??
Without even an attempt to think about how I feel!

嗚呼
どうして私だけこんな目に
数え切れない悪意に曝されて
あなたたちはずっと黙っているけど
けれど”これらすべての声”――気のせいなはずがないわ!

aa
doushite watashi dake kon’na me ni
kazoekirenai akui ni sarasarete
anatatachi wa zutto damatteiru kedo
keredo “korera subete no koe” – ki no sei na hazu ga nai wa!

Ah
Why does it have to be me?
Why do I have to be exposed to such malice?
None of you are raising a single word aloud, but
All of these voices I hear – There is no way this can all be in my head!!

ほらぎりぎしと軋ませるよに
ほらぐじゅくじゃと掻き混ぜるよに
ほらがらがたと騒いで回る
私の頭の中を

hora girigishi to kishimaseru yo ni
hora gujyukuja to kakimazeru yo ni
hora garagata to sawaide mawaru
watashi no atama no naka wo

Your words grip and grate
Your words crush and stir
Your words tumble and clamour
Making a mess of my brain

私のことを疎ましがらないで
私のことを毛嫌いしないで
私のことを掻き毟らないで
私を放っておいて!

watashi no koto wo utomashigaranaide
watashi no koto wo kegirai shinaide
watashi no koto wo kakimushiranaide
watashi wo houtteoite!

Don’t treat me with such disgust!
Don’t be so prejudiced against me!
Don’t tear and rip at me this way!
Just leave me alone!!!

聴きたくない
 笑っていたい 聞こえてしまう
         笑えない

kikitakunai
 waratteitai
  kikoeteshimau
   waraenai

I don’t want hear you
 I just want to laugh and be happy
  But I can’t help but hear you
   And so I just, I just can’t!

嗚呼
きっとあなたも私のことを
それを思うことだけでも恐ろしい
けして耐え切れない 出来損ないなの
そうよ――こんなものもって生まれて あなたのようになれはしない!!

aa
kitto anata mo watashi no koto wo
sore wo omou koto dake demo oroshii
keshite taekirenai dekisokonai nano
sou yo – kon’na mono motte umarete anata no you ni nare wa shinai!!

Ah
You, I bet you’re thinking things about me too
Just the possibility is enough to frighten me
I’m a broken being that cannot even withstand recognition
Yes, you see – I was born this way and I can never be like you, never!!

嗚呼
盲目の笑顔 それさえ遠く
虚ろな視線を虚空に彷徨わせ
パラノイドガール 心殺して
今日も聞こえ来る妄想の限り
けして笑う事無く

aa
moumoku no egao sore sae tooku
utsuro a shisen’ wo kokuu ni samayowase
paranoid girl kokoro koroshite
kyou mo kikoekuru mousou no kagiri
keshite warau koto naku

Ah
So, with a blind and distant smile
Letting her empty gaze drift in the void
This paranoid girl killed her heart
And as long as she still hears those phantom voices
She will never, never feel joy

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