Archive for May, 2017

パラノイドガール // Paranoid Girl

Hi.

Mental health.

パラノイドガール
 Paranoid Girl
ラストリモート|東方地霊殿
Vocal: めらみぽっぷ
Arrange+Lyrics: RD-Sounds
Circle: 凋叶棕
Album: 虚 -utsuro-
Event: C91

あなたたちはいつだって
隠し事してばかり
その心に疚しい言葉を隠し持って

anatatachi wa itsudatte
kakushigoto shite bakari
sono kokoro ni yamashii kotoba wo kakushimotte

You all are always
Always hiding things
Concealing your guilty conscience in your hearts

どんな気持ちでいようと
お決まりの笑顔だけ
その表面に貼り付けて

don’na kimochi de iyou to
okimari no egao dake
sono omote ni haritsukete

No matter what you really feel
You always paste that
Same false smile on your faces

どうしてそんな嘘をつくの?
みんなわたしで遊んでいるの??
わたしがどういうモノなのかを 知りながら!

doushite son’na uso wo tsuku no?
min’na watashi de ason’deiru no??
watashi ga dou iu mono nanoka wo shirinagara!

Why would you tell such a lie?
Is everyone here just playing with me??
You all know, you know just what I am!

嗚呼
我慢ならない 偽りの声
無責任な言葉だけが木霊する
あなたたちはそれをごまかすのでしょう
けれどこれら全ての声――知っているのよぜんぶ!

aa
gaman’ naranai itsuwari no koe
musekinin’ na kotoba dake ga kodama suru
anatatachi wa sore wo gomakasu no deshou
keredo korera subete no koe – shitteiru no yo zen’bu!

Ah!
I can’t stand these lying voices
Irresponsible words echoing back and forth
Of course you all would just deny it
But all of your inner voices – I know them well, yes every one!

――私には聞こえるのよ。
はじめは虚ろに響く声
次第に強さを増すその声
わたしを蔑む無数の声
けして止まらない!

-watashi ni wa kikoeru no yo.
hajime wa utsuro ni hibiku koe
shidai ni tsuyosa wo masu sono koe
watashi wo sagesumu musuu no koe
keshite tomaranai!

-I can hear them, you see?
In the beginning it was like echoes in an empty room
But they kept growing in strength, all of those voices
Countless voices, all of them mocking me!
And it never ends!!

道傍の小石を
蹴っ飛ばすときみたいに
相手の気持ちなど何も感じないくらいに

michibata no koishi wo
kettobasu toki mitai ni
aite no kimochi nado nani mo kan’jinai kurai ni

The same way you kick a pebble
Off the side of the road
You all aren’t concerned for the way I feel, not at all

そんな誹謗中傷を浴びせて
そんな罵詈雑言をぶつけて
よくも平気でいられるのね

son’na kotoba wo abisete
son’na kotoba wo butsukete
yokumo heiki de irareru no ne

Despite the way you shower me with slander
Despite the way you beat me with verbal abuse
I’m almost impressed how it doesn’t pain you at all!

わたしのことを嗤っているでしょう?
心の奥で蔑んでいるでしょう??
わたしがどれほど傷ついてるか 知りもせず!

watashi no koto wo waratteiru deshou?
kokoro no oku de sagesun’deiru deshou??
watashi ga dorehodo kizutsuiteiru ka shiri mo sezu!

You’re laughing at me aren’t you?
Mocking me deep in your heart aren’t you??
Without even an attempt to think about how I feel!

嗚呼
どうして私だけこんな目に
数え切れない悪意に曝されて
あなたたちはずっと黙っているけど
けれど”これらすべての声”――気のせいなはずがないわ!

aa
doushite watashi dake kon’na me ni
kazoekirenai akui ni sarasarete
anatatachi wa zutto damatteiru kedo
keredo “korera subete no koe” – ki no sei na hazu ga nai wa!

Ah
Why does it have to be me?
Why do I have to be exposed to such malice?
None of you are raising a single word aloud, but
All of these voices I hear – There is no way this can all be in my head!!

ほらぎりぎしと軋ませるよに
ほらぐじゅくじゃと掻き混ぜるよに
ほらがらがたと騒いで回る
私の頭の中を

hora girigishi to kishimaseru yo ni
hora gujyukuja to kakimazeru yo ni
hora garagata to sawaide mawaru
watashi no atama no naka wo

Your words grip and grate
Your words crush and stir
Your words tumble and clamour
Making a mess of my brain

私のことを疎ましがらないで
私のことを毛嫌いしないで
私のことを掻き毟らないで
私を放っておいて!

watashi no koto wo utomashigaranaide
watashi no koto wo kegirai shinaide
watashi no koto wo kakimushiranaide
watashi wo houtteoite!

Don’t treat me with such disgust!
Don’t be so prejudiced against me!
Don’t tear and rip at me this way!
Just leave me alone!!!

聴きたくない
 笑っていたい 聞こえてしまう
         笑えない

kikitakunai
 waratteitai
  kikoeteshimau
   waraenai

I don’t want hear you
 I just want to laugh and be happy
  But I can’t help but hear you
   And so I just, I just can’t!

嗚呼
きっとあなたも私のことを
それを思うことだけでも恐ろしい
けして耐え切れない 出来損ないなの
そうよ――こんなものもって生まれて あなたのようになれはしない!!

aa
kitto anata mo watashi no koto wo
sore wo omou koto dake demo oroshii
keshite taekirenai dekisokonai nano
sou yo – kon’na mono motte umarete anata no you ni nare wa shinai!!

Ah
You, I bet you’re thinking things about me too
Just the possibility is enough to frighten me
I’m a broken being that cannot even withstand recognition
Yes, you see – I was born this way and I can never be like you, never!!

嗚呼
盲目の笑顔 それさえ遠く
虚ろな視線を虚空に彷徨わせ
パラノイドガール 心殺して
今日も聞こえ来る妄想の限り
けして笑う事無く

aa
moumoku no egao sore sae tooku
utsuro a shisen’ wo kokuu ni samayowase
paranoid girl kokoro koroshite
kyou mo kikoekuru mousou no kagiri
keshite warau koto naku

Ah
So, with a blind and distant smile
Letting her empty gaze drift in the void
This paranoid girl killed her heart
And as long as she still hears those phantom voices
She will never, never feel joy

イマココ // Ima Koko (Tsuki ga Kirei Opening Theme)

Akane is a brave girl and she is better than all of us.

イマココ
 Ima Koko
 Right Here Right Now
月がきれい OP / Tsuki ga Kirei OP
東山奈央 / Touyama Nao
WEST GROUND

なんとなく頭の中で君が 離れなくなっていたんだ

nan’to naku atama no naka de kimi ga hanarenakunatteitan’ da

You know I… just can’t seem to get out you of my head anymore…

途切れ途切れの会話だねいつも
息も吐き出せないほどの鼓動
目が合った瞬間にまた何かが胸をつらぬいてゆく 今

togire togire no kaiwa dane itsumo
iki mo hakidasenai hodo no kodou
me ga atta shun’kan’ ni mata nanika ga mune wo tsuranuiteyuku ima

Whenever we talk it’s in bits and fragments, isn’t it?
My heart is always racing so much it’s hard to breathe
When our eyes meet, the way we are right now…
 I feel as if something has pierced right through my heart again

大好きな人が今ここにいるいるんだよ
最高の毎日は恋のパレパレード
近づきたい 誰よりも君に今今以上
会いたくて会いにゆく 笑顔また見つけにゆくよ

daisuki na hito ga ima koko ni iru – irun’ da yo
saikou no mainichi wa koi no para – parade
chikadzukitai dare yori mo kimi ni ima – ima ijou
aitakute ai ni yuku egao mata mitsuke ni yuku yo

The person I love is right here, right now – you are
Every day is so wonderful it’s like a – a love parade
I want now to be closer to you, more than anyone else – more than I am now
I want to see you, I’m going to see you – I’m going to find that smile yet again

教室の隅で笑った君は 今すべてのものの中で光る
初めてつないだ手 嵐のようなうねりが駆けめぐる 今

kyoushitsu no sumi de waratta kimi wa ima subete no mono no naka de hikaru
hajimete tsunaida te arashi no you na uneri ga kakemeguru ima

I remember you laughing in the corner of our classroom
 Right now, you shine brighter than anything else to me
I remember when we first held hands together
 Right now, this feeling races around me like a storm

何度でも君だけに僕は恋恋する
知るほどに加速する恋のスピスピード
ありのまま伝えたい なのになぜなぜだろう
どうしようもなくいつも不器用になる僕がいるよ
どうして?

nan’do demo kimi dake ni boku wa koi – koi suru
shiru hodo ni kasoku suru koi no spe – speed
ari no mama tsutaetai nanoni naze – naze darou
doushiyou mo naku itsumo bukiyou ni naru boku ga iru yo
doushite?

Over and over again in you and in you alone I fall – fall in love
This love, the more I experience it the more – the more it accelerates
I want to tell you exactly how I feel, but – but why I wonder
Why do I always end up not being able to express myself?
Why?

まだ僕ら未完成で始まったばかりの未来
春も夏も秋も冬もいつも一緒にいたい
どこにいるの?何しているの?誰のことを想っているの?
行け 行け 行け 今
行け 行け 行け 行け

mada bokura mikan’sei de hajimatta bakari no mirai
haru mo natsu mo aki mo fuyu mo itsumo issho ni itai
doko ni iru no? nani shiteiru no? dare no kot wo omotteiru no?
ike ike ike ima
ike ike ike ike

We’re still incomplete, and this future of ours has just begun
I want to be with you always: through spring, summer, fall and winter
Where are you? What are you doing? Who are you thinking of?
Let’s go! Let’s go! Let’s go! Right now!
Let’s go! Let’s go! Let’s go! Let’s go!

大好きな人が今ここにいるいるんだよ
最高の毎日は恋のバレバレード
近づきたい 誰よりも君に今今以上
会いたくて会いにゆく 笑顔また見つけにゆくよ

daisuki na hito ga ima koko ni iru – irun’ da yo
saikou no mainichi wa koi no para – parade
chikadzukitai dare yori mo kimi ni ima – ima ijou
aitakute ai ni yuku egao mata mitsuke ni yuku yo

The person I love is right here, right now – you are
Every day is so wonderful it’s like a – a love parade
I want now to be closer to you, more than anyone else – more than I am now
I want to see you, I’m going to see you – I’m going to find that smile yet again

祭符「神遊びの唄」 // Saifu: Kamiasobi no Uta

I told myself I’d translate this song about two weeks ago…. about a month ago…. about 4 months ago… about 8 months ago… a year ago.

Well since it’s already past Reitaisai 14 and it’s been a year since this song came out, I suppose it’s time to finally get around to doing it huh?

I just finished my finals and am feeling like using the other half of my brain, so here it goes.

Whew though. I had to break out my classical Japanese dictionary for the first time in a long while. A lot of words don’t really mean the same thing as they used to. Or rather, what they used to mean can be wildly different from what they mean now.

Notes:
A tamagushi is a Shinto offering made from a sasaki branch and paper.

The third line is a play on a play on words in a semi-famous poem about kagura ↓
「かご山やさか木の枝ににぎかけてその―思ひこそやれ」〈夫木・一八〉

While “forbidden zone” is a literal interpretation of the word (来無処), it’s also used to mean a fork in the road. As in you can’t keep going straight, you have to turn some way or another. The god associated with forks in the road is also associated to the Mishaguji curse gods that Suwako commands as well. (It’s all really just a bunch of really obscure wordplay.)

A couple of stanzas are direct references to Suwako’s spell cards.

祭符「神遊びの唄」
 Saifu “Kamiasobi no Uta”
 Festival Sign “The Song for God’s Amusement”
明日ハレの日、ケの昨日|東方風神録
ネイティブフェイス|東方風神録
Vocal: めらみぽっぷ
Arrange+Lyrics: RD-Sounds
Circle: 凋叶棕
Album: 掲 -kakage-
Event: Reitaisai 13

さあ 緋の袖 玉櫛 鈴打ち鳴らし
御前に はれのひ ただ舞うたらば
かご山 やさか 木の枝 にぎかけ
やうやう 響け 供に遊ばせ

saa hi no sode tamagushi suzu uchinarashi
omae ni hare no hi tada mau taraba
kagoyama yasaka ki no eda nigikake
youyou hibike tomo ni asobase

Scarlet sleeves waving with tamagushi offerings and ringing bells…
But of course, if we are to dance in the gods’ presence on this festival day
So take up the jeweled sasaki branches of Kagoyama with paper streamers
Let us dance together as we call out and let our music ring!

振り放け見遣れば未闢の幻想郷に
まつろうものの姿のあらんことを

furisake miyareba migyaku no daichi ni
matsurou mono no sugata no aran’ koto wo

Looking far off into an uncivilized land of illusion
I pray that there may come one to govern over it

遠くに知るか
果てども無き原風景

tooku ni shiru ka
hatedo mo naki keshiki

Shall I reign far and wide
Over this endless landscape?

遠くは遥か
これは見守る原風景

tooku wa haruka
kore wa mamoru keshiki

Distant and vast
This is a land to protect

緑の山に
瀬渡斯くやも
萌える色出る
玉のごとくに

midori no yama ni
sewatari kaku ya mo
moeru iro idzuru
tama no gotoku ni

See those green mountains
With their flowing streams
What flourishing color abounds!
They are like jewels

咲かせよ咲かせ
さてもみなうつくし
迎える命
歓喜び咲うこと

sakase yo sakase
sate mo mina utsukushi
mukaeru inochi
yorokobi warau koto

Blossom, yes blossom!
Look how beautiful you are!
As I see the life presented me
On my face a smile blossoms in delight

涼れにそよぐ
彩を織り成す
萌える色出る
錦のごとく

nagare ni soyogu
iro wo orinasu
moeru iro idzuru
nishiki no gotoku

Rustling in the flow
Life weaving its hues
What flourishing color abounds!
They are like a brocade

祭に添えては 祀に同じと

matsuri ni soete wa matsuri ni onaji to

In being like a festival, this is the same as an offering to me

踏めよ来無処 ここよりこちら
さあさ 一踏
宴の開く

fume yo kunado koko yori kochira
saa sa ittou
utage no hiraku

Dance around the forbidden zones, hither here hither there
Come now, jump!
The party has just begun!

遊べよ 命懸け
その酣なること
交われ 御魂ごと
それの在ることを知れよ

asobe yo inochi kake
sono takenawa naru koto
majiware mitama goto
sore no aru koto wo shire yo

Dance with your life on the line
The risk is the height of it all
Sift through with all your soul
And know what I say to be true

さあ
ニ、ニ、一で
拡散がる弾幕に
その身を賭して避けたらば

saa
ni ni no hitotsu de
hirogaru keshiki ni
sono mi wo toshite saketaraba

Now we begin!
With two bows two claps and one bow!
If you will gamble your life
To dodge through this curtain fire landscape,

奉避る舞となって
神祭ろうと楽ばすように

sasageru ugoki to natte
ware matsurou to asobasu you ni

May your dodging movements be
A dance of offering, of reverence to me

舞はぬものならば口より呑ませ
巧ならずば口より呑ませ
身にところせしことその末代まで
身のところせしことその末代まで

mawanu mono naraba kuchi yori nomase
takumi narazuba kuchi yori nomase
mi ni tokoroseshi koto sono matsudai made
mi no tokoroseshi koto sono matsudai made

For those who will not dance, make them drink their fill!
For those who are unskilled, make them drink their fill!
May there be curses on you and your offspring!
May you be cursed, you and your offspring!

人にも知るは
夢の噺と寝
悠けく眠れ
永遠の花褥

hito ni mo shiru wa
yume no hanashi to ne
harukeku nemure
towa no hana shitone

What even humans know
Are talk of dreams and slumber
So sleep in a deep distant dream
On an eternal bed of flowers

避けねば咲かず
さても去ぬるべく
舞え舞え舞うより
その道は無く

sakeneba sakazu
sate mo inurubeku
mae mae mau yori
sono michi wa naku

If you do not dodge, you will not blossom
If you do not, you are destined to die
There is not option left of you but
To dance and dance and dance some more

手足も塞ぐ
さても狭き道を
くぐるは猛き
ものの仕業なれば

teashi mo fusagu
sate mo semaki michi wo
kuguru wa takeki
mono no shiwaza nareba

As making one’s way down this narrow path
Despite being shut in by hand and foot
Is a feat only the most
Fierce and courageous may perform,

鉄の鑰持て
かつての神話
遍く伝えて
うち滅ばさん

tetsu no kagi mote
katsute no aragoto
amaneku tsutaete
uchihorobasan’

In return, wielding my iron rings
I shall show offer you a reenactment
Of that legendary battle of yore
As I wreck havoc upon you

祭に添えては 祀に同じと

matsuri ni soete wa matsuri ni onaji to

In being like a festival, this is the same as an offering to me

跨げ来無処 手の鳴る方へ
さあさ 一踏
宴の開く

matage kunado te no naru hou e
saa sa ittou
utage no hiraku

Dance over the forbidden zones, following the clapping hands
Come now, jump!
The party has just begun!

遊べよ 命懸け
それが妙なること
交われ 御魂ごと
それの在ることを知れよ

asobe yo inochi kake
sore ga tae naru koto
majiware mitama goto
sore no aru koto wo shire yo

Dance with your life on the line
The risk is what makes it sublime
Sift through with all your soul
And know what I say to be true

さあ
ニ、ニ、一で
拡散がる弾幕
その身合わせて奏すれば

saa
ni ni no hitotsu de
hirogaru utagoe
sono mi awasete sou sureba

Now we begin!
With two bows two claps and one bow!
When you sing along with your motions
Enveloped by this song of curtain fire

祝避の詞となって
神祀ろうと唄わすように

iwai no kotoba to natte
ware matsurou to utawasu you ni

May your voice be as words of celebration
A song of offering, of reverence to me

遊べよ 命懸け
その美しきこと
交われ 御魂ごと
それの在ることを知れよ

asobe yo inochi kake
sono utsukushiki koto
majiware mitama goto
sore no aru koto wo shire yo

Dance with your life on the line
The risk is what makes it beautiful
Sift through with all your soul
And know what I say to be true

さあ
ニ、ニ、一で
拡散がる弾幕に
はるけく鬨を響かせば

saa
ni ni no hitotsu de
hirogaru keshiki ni
harukeku toki wo hibikaseba

Now we begin!
With two bows two claps and one bow!
If you will let ring far your battle cries
Through this curtain fire landscape,

掲げる符名となって
神も演者をも楽ばすように

kakageru kotoba to natte
ware mo hito wo mo asobasu you ni

May your cries be raised as spells
Which will please both the masses and me

祭りは未だ終わらず
即ち明日のちまた明日

matsuri wa imada owarazu
sunawachi hare nochi mata hare

This festival is far from over
In other words, the day after a festival is yet another one!